The Gap

Hellow fellas.
Today is particularly a particular day.
Baru beberapa jam yang lalu ketika gue ngetik ini, kita baru saja menyelesaikan acara
yang bernama IHT << (Indonesian Hip-Hop Throwdown)
Bersama teman-teman sebangsa dan setanah air, dengan orang-orang yang punya visi dan misi sama.
Passion yang sama, kecintaan yang sama terhadap kultur yang sama.


Kenapa ni hari spesial !!!
Let me tell you....
Being acknowledge by people who has the same style as you...
Is really, AWESOME !!!

Gue adalah seorang "Dancer"... Really, i'm far from that.
Gue masih merangkak istilahnya. I'm not doing good here.
Gue belajar di sebuah sanggar tari bernama O2DS yang terletak di BSD City.
Dan gue bener-bener pengen mendalami satu style yang biasa disebut Popping.

Sekarang udah jalan setahun maybe, gue bener-bener into popping. Sebelumnya cuman sambil-sambil aje.
Dulu gue lebih seneng new style, yang kiblatnya gak jelas, dan dengan cara bawain gue yang gak jelas
hasilnya juga gak jelas.
Popping, really has its own way entering my life.
Dari cuman liat orang-orang di video-video, or just watching people around me Pop, makes me feels
REALLY groovy.
Dan kata banyak orang, badan gue sangat cocok untuk popping.
Memang badan gue sangat aneh, badan gue suka ngunci sendiri tanpa gue inginkan, dan itu merusak
gerakan-gerakan Hip-hop yang fluid. Tapi di popping itu bagus !! Mwahahahaha...

Now enough about popping.
Gue ikut turun battle di IHT, gue ikutan 2vs2 AllStyle battle.
Harusnya gue berpartner sama Queen of Arse !!
Tapi pas babak prelim doi gak bisa keluar dari kampus, so gue sendirian....
I don't remember anything about what i'm doing.
I just do what I normally do.
But this time, i just feel hopeless....
I am partnerless and i have to go against two of the best dancer that i've known.
Ada Edo Funologic, doi Locker, dan partner doi, MrIlham seorang poppers juga kayak gue.
I have to admit Ilham is better than me....
Oke balik lagi, gue feeling hopeless.
Gue udah gak mau mikir apa-apa, and I just do my dance.
I just dance, dance for whatever the hell that my body do, I don't think about anything.
Ngikutin beat-beat yang di pasang DJ. Totally instinctively.
At that moment, I feel really lonely.........
I don't have Queen of Arse beside me....
I don't have anybody to rely on....
I don't have anyone at my dance school who shares the same passion as me.....
I don't have anything.... I am just feeling lost there....
Gue nikmatin ketika Edo turun locking, as usual, he is a great locker.
Gue bangga bisa Battle sama dia....
Gue perhatiin ketika MrIlham turun popping, and he is soooo damn good....
Makes me think a bit.... Am I a good popper ? pfffttt... Am I a Dancer ?
So when its my turn to move....
Yeah, It was me literally screaming "This is my last, I just wanna move, I just wanna dance. One last time"....

Karena lawan gue dua orang !! Ya otomatis gue turun dua kali....
Damn it !!
And yeah.... Its good actually... I feel really free....
Like i am flying.... Doing whatever the hell I want.... How I want it....
No..... How my body wants it.... I just lose it.... I don't even think....
I just wanna feel the beat, i just wanna Pop. I just wanna dance....
One last time !! Just one last time !!!!

What I don't expect was....
The people who I look up to...
Was actually watching me....
There was Salt, Feng-Feng, Jordy, MrIlham, Dennis, Kak Edo, Kak Chandra, Miss B. And Lots more !!
And there's that guy !! Who called me si Single Woles !! Damn !! Hahahahaha....

Gue bener-bener kaget ketika mereka bilang kalo gue tadi pas prelim bagus banget.
Even Ricky dari Legacy bilang begitu.
I was shocked... I was really shocked....
Somehow it encouraged me....

Then at the end of it all, by it all i mean ACARA !!
I feel kinda alone....
Don't get me wrong...
Gue seneng banget ketika setiap dari mereka menganggap gue Poppers...
FINALLY !!! I could call myself a Popper !!!
But still, I feel alone....
Iya memang gue di acknowledged mereka....
But I'll be back home, di O2....
Back to the nobody i've always been.....

I really feel... Like I don't belong here anymore....
Kak Semmy Blank !! The person I really look up to...
Who teaches me patiently di kelas everything I know about popping...
Will be gone soon....
I have no partner disini yang bener-bener bisa gue ajak share....
Gue gak bisa ngeshare apa-apa kesiapa-siapa....
Orang-orang minta gue ngajarin mereka Hip-hop...
I don't have a clue....
The Boss and The Clown is an awesome dancer....
They are really good at their own style....
They tell me what to do in Popping...
But still, I don't feel enough....
"Cari...."
Adalah satu-satunya nasihat mereka.....

I wanna feel like dancing again....
I wanna fly again...
I wanna pour all of my hearts out in my movement...
Coz its the only way I could tell everybody how I really feel.....
I don't wanna talk anymore....
Its pointless....

What I'm trying to say is......
I don't know what to do anymore here....
I'm feeling so pointless....
I wish i never gone down this road.... =)

Anyways.......




That's that ='3